There's nothing interesting about me, except the fact that I really should stop switching blogs.

Another pretentious way of saying "Bitch, please."

I know a lot of my friends have been trying to be there for me in their own ways – be it old or new – I really appreciate the love I was given with when I needed it most. I’ve been reduced to a hopeless wreck overnight and I just allowed the hurt to grow into amounts I cannot handle. I’ve been crying everywhere and on an intentional hunger strike just to distract myself from the pain. Love – be it gained or lost – is never a rollercoaster ride. I guess this episode was the part where I fell off the rollercoaster and into incoming traffic.

Truth to be told, I’ve never been hurt this badly. I suppose this is love, having the ability to bring you to heights you’ve never thought you’d reach, yet at the same time being able to throw you down so far down, ‘rock bottom’ keeps redefining itself.

I know the tears are going to find their way down my cheeks every now and then, and it’s always going to sting. I know if I couldn’t love another person as much as I loved Zaimie, I wouldn’t delve into anything. I’m staying true to love, unlike a certain ex boyfriend (haha.)

Either way, I’d love to thank all of you who’ve been there personally but I couldn’t go through explaining the whole thing so, here’s my little thank you + explanation. From the bottom of my heart – and I’ve come to realize how deep it can get – I thank you.

[12:18:15]
Tiu tiu piu piu. says:
i dont know... i guess

[12:18:30]
Tiu tiu piu piu. says:
i'm coming to terms with the fact that yes im very sad and angry and i do love him

[12:18:30]
Tiu tiu piu piu. says:
but

[12:18:35]
Tiu tiu piu piu. says:
im just really sore

[12:18:40]
Tiu tiu piu piu. says:
that he moved on before we even ended

[12:18:44]
Tiu tiu piu piu. says:
so quickly

[12:18:50]
Tiu tiu piu piu. says:
and im still here.

[12:19:08]
Tiu tiu piu piu. says:
he closed the chapter in my life before i even got a chance to finish reading it

[12:19:15]
Tiu tiu piu piu. says:
and i keep trying to wonder what the ending cold be

[12:19:18]
Tiu tiu piu piu. says:
*could

[12:19:29]
Tiu tiu piu piu. says:
but now i know that its time to just move on to the next chapter

[12:19:35]
Tiu tiu piu piu. says:
maybe i can figure out the ending from there

[12:19:51]
Tiu tiu piu piu. says:
maybe the plot just.. changes direction..

[12:19:54]
Tiu tiu piu piu. says:
whatever it is..

[12:20:15]
Tiu tiu piu piu. says:
im his friend... to snap him out of what he's doing to himself, lying and lying to everyone..

[12:20:27]
Tiu tiu piu piu. says:
because i owe it to him.. because our relationship turned him into this guy.

[12:20:46]
Tiu tiu piu piu. says:
and i feel like i owe it to him to remind him who i fell in love with.. the zaimie who never cheats or lie..

[12:21:02]
Tiu tiu piu piu. says:
i genuinely want the best for him now.. to cherish whatever he has with the guy now.

[12:21:12]
Tiu tiu piu piu. says:
i'm ready to move on, (INSERT YOUR NAME HERE)! thank you for being there for me
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